NativelyLost

He doesn’t pick up the phone but expects to be kept close, when he’s a million miles away. He taunts and grunts if girl doesn’t include him in her plans.

But when she tries and calls he’s snoring in the arms of his ‘new and improved girl’. “How unfair.”Girl says

Nonchalantly but deep inside her heart breaks into a million pieces. She looses herself in despair for her’s is not hers anymore. She cries, curses and throws a tantrum her voice echoeing in her lonely room,

But naught even a whisper reaches him, because he’s a million whispers away. She collects her fallen pieces and moves about her day, suppressing her emotions now numb but ok. But just when she taught all was back in place her phone vibrates and on the other line it’s no-one but his new and improved girl.

I try to keep the sadness away, but it always finds a way to be with me, being the driver of my mind I allow my friends a ride, while the taunt and laugh at my demise, I strive to rid of them as sadness my truer friend collides with my straighter strides.

I laugh and live while my fear stills, I am okay and stable until outer delegations reign supreme, I try and dismiss the thought but I break apart like a clay pot, Once everything builds up in my chest the relief I seek crumbles my rest,

Oh, I try but the snarky little lies ruin my strive for peaceful a mind, I care not for the words they say aimed at my heart like icy rays, but my helpless state whenever a misplaced statement goes directly and punctures my mental space.

I wrote this while going through and emotional rollercoaster. The ups and downs can have a positive outcome if put on paper. Hope you enjoyed this peace of my mind.

You can contact me here. ziajey@gmail.com

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